Just a thought

you can buy everything that you think you want, foolishly thinking it'll make you happy, and it does for a short while. then when you feel low and there's nothing else you want, you don't know what do to make you feel better. back in a week x

PLS SUB ME, THX IN ADVANCE

So this morning, I got a message, one of which I often recieve because people are fucking MORONS. Have a look.

"hey!
Hey KickThePj

I think you might like my style of video. I was wondering if you could check out my videos if you had the time and subscribe if you like them.

Thanks in advance,

bigwhiteseth"

Right, so the first thing I did was actually look at his subscriber count, to no surprise, he has 20k plus. I wonder how he got them.
This is clearly just a standard message he sends to everyone because he's just copied and pasted my user name straight to the message because most people don't spell PJ, like KickThePj, with a lower case j, ANYWAY, It's obviously a copy and paste job because...well it's obvious.

Secondly, "I think you might like my style of video", no, no I probably wouldn't. I like really interesting videos like those of Lassegg, or nintendo related ones like the AVGN. However, I had a look anyway because I was curious. He is an american vlogger, with HORRIBLE raspy sound quality which is a put off in itself, by the looks of the titles of his videos he talks about news and celebrities, so, no thanks.

Thirdly, check out the videos if i have time. Nope.

Fourthly, subscribe if I like them. Again, nope.

Then lastly, the icing on the top of the shit, "thanks in advance". Erm NO, that's NOT how it works love. The little phrase "thanks in advance" pisses me off. Unless I've said I'll do something for someone, I haven't got the intentions of doing what they've asked, so DON'T fucking thank me in "advance".

It baffles me why someone with 20k subscribers needs to go round spamming people to subscribe, it's stupid. Similarly, I have no idea why people with no videos, no subscribers and no intentions of making videos go round begging for subscribers. Why? Do you even know the point of subscribing? They just want it for the number because they think the more subscribers you have, the cooler you are, erm no. Think about it, subscribing is so people are kept informed of when you have a new video, what difference does it make if you have 10 or 10 thousand if you've asked people to subscribe that WON'T WATCH THEM.

Right, that's all I have to say, I've got a coach to catch ina few hours, and I still haven't packed.

Bai

Selling out

I just wanted to write a quick blog on the term "sell out". I think dom once mentioned this in how someone can't be a sell out if they actually had intentions of making money. People brand alot of youtubers as sell outs because they're youtube partners, but realistically, everyone in life wants money. It might be due to jealousy, but it's stupid.

Now that brings me on to the confused.com advert. I was asked to do a clip and i've always said, if i was asked, i would do it. The money for doing it is pretty good, and although theres the slight embarassment of being on TV across the country saying some silly lines, just keep thinking about the money. Plus my little cousin would be really happy, ever sinse they saw phil on tv and thought it was me, they kept saying "WHEN ARE YOU GONNA BE ON THE ADVERT?".

Alot of people on youtube make a living on youtube, so I wouldn't consider it selling out. Maybe there is a certain degree, maybe if someone started doing mass product placement with coca cola, doritos and tampons, then people would probably deem it as selling out. But not completely anyway, it would be weird if i all of a sudden stopped making videos about nintendo and shit and started just advertising.


In unrelated news

[15:18:33] lex says: shit i just squirted the juice all over my keyboard

Toombalor

So I noticed lately alot of people have been using tumblr, I decided to check out the website, it looks really good. It's very simple, which I like. For months and months I've wanted somewhere that I can host very small audio files to show people, tumblr seems promising. So if you have an account, go follow me or something

www.kickthepj.tumblr.com

Also, I will still be using this blog for long updates. I'll use tumblr for audio, small video (maybe), pictures, (which I will be taking more of), and small snippets of things that I like.

As for anyone that may think "fuck sake, not another bandwagon", who cares? True, I wouldn't have started using it if others hadn't because I wouldn't have bothered to check it out, but I wouldn't be using it if it was crap.

Becoming cool

Let me tell you, I've not been this super cool guy you see before you all my life. I was having a conversation about year 7, and it made me think back. I HATED secondary school. I loved primary school because It was simple, and people liked me. I remember people would fight over who would sit next to me on the carpet, that sounds like a really bad lie, but i'm being srs. The teachers loved me, my friends loved me, the girls...not so much, but I was somewhat popular.

Then I moved up to secondary school, and it was scary. I hardly knew anyone, but that's never really a bad thing, I'm always up for making new friends, but it's hard when they don't give you the chance. Without going in to too much detail, i'll cut it short. I was not cool for the first few years of secondary school. I was short, fat and geeky, but why would that make me any less of a nice person? It didn't. So not really making friends made it hard to get on with school, and I really loved school. New lessons, new classes, everything new.

I was bullied, alot throughout the first couple of years in secondary school. This being year 7 abd 8 mainly, I changed alot towards the end of year 9. I remember that my class mates would used to steal my equipment, snap my rulers and pens for no reason, and generally make my life hell. They would do the 'oh so cliche' stealing my dinner money and food.

I remember that I would always come home really upset. I felt like such a fucking idiot whenever I cried, whether it be in the middle of class, or when I got home.
Eventually I would just lie about being ill so I didn't have to go into school until eventually my mum didn't believe me, so i would start to make myself ill. Eventually I just made myself throw up and stuff to have a legit reason to stay at home.

I just hated it all so much. Oh and by the way, why are we ever taught that "if you tell a teacher, you be fine"? That has never helped me, any time I told a teacher, it definitely made things worse. My dad always used to tell me stories about when he got bullied, he stood up to them and that helped. You know what? It fucking did.

I changed alot towards the end of year 9 then onwards, found a nice group of friends, felt accepted and had fun. That summer of I think 2005, maybe 06, I went out every day, took up skate boarding which was so much fun, and just made the most of being a teenager.

Now i've gotten to the age where I can't fuck about, and I hate it. For any juniors reading this, here is my advise, make the most of being a kid. I mean yes I'm still relatively young, although I'll be 19 in 6 months today. I guess I'm partly ready for adult life but partly not. Don't like the idea of working, but it has to be done If i want nice things. Something I'm very fond of now though, is my girlfriend. I love lex, and don't really need to express that very much more in words.

School was hell, I hope to never go through anything like that again. It was mainly because of the way I looked, but oh well. I've changed loads, i'm not nice and tall, builg big and just completely different.

I'm going to leave it at that, I hope I have enlightened you a bit on my early secondary school years. However, you still know next to nothing about me.

My past 48 hours

I'm gonna write this up before I forget. AND IT IS QUITE LONG. But if you read it all, thank you. Also, I talk alot of lex, so if you don't want to hear about me being soppy, don't read it.

So on friday, I woke up at half 7 in the morning and hopped on a coach at 10 o clock. It lasted about two and a half hours, for most of which I slept.

I then arrived in london, victoria, where lex gave me some AMAZING DIRECTIONS!!!11!1

/sarcasm

I did the opposite of what lex said and got to the train station just fine. Before I got a train to lex's town. I arrived and met lex, we had a nice little walk to her house where she gave me an insight into her town and all the crazay thangs that had happened in the past few years.

At hers we watched an animated film that was so fucking weird, it was SO fucking weird. I kinda liked it, but it was mental. Think of watching one of my videos, extremely high, very drunk, AT A CIRCUS. Pretty normal really.

Then I shall fast forward to the next day. We woke up at some point in the morning to a beautiful day. We had toast because lex would refuse to make me a sammich. We set off for the train station to get to south bank. We saw ian and sophie on the platform a couple stops after us, so we rushed down the carriages to get to them.

We arrived at waterloo station, but our travel card was wrong, we spent 20 quid for two tickets that couldn't get us through the barriers, the guy said he'd let us through that one time but we'd need to buy some different ones to get back. Luckily they were open on the way back, I really did not fancy spending a tenner for both me and lex for more tickets, I would have preferred jumping the barriers. Speaking of jumping the barriers, lex's friend jenny, who is pretty cool (hawt), towards the end of the day we had to get through some barriers and my ticket wasn't working, and I couldn't see any gaurds so i ran through with jenny then saw a guard directly opposite hahahaha. We just got into the lift as fast as possible.

Also, a lovely little jamaican lady was running for the lift, and I HEROICLY jumped into the middle of the closing doors to make sure she could get in. I practically potentially sacraficed my life for her!

Anyway, back to the afternoon. We met up with everyone and I was extremely nervous. I was shaking and feeling sick as we approached the crowd of people. I soon calmed down after wards though. I felt awkward hugging people, I think it's because it's been so long since i've been to a gathering.

We sat down for a bit, which me beth and fraz started. We sat down and EVERYONE, literally EVERYONE crowded and sat down. Fraz was really nice, I knew we'd get along. We are too cool. We then went off to eat food etc which was a bitch, why can we never find a place to eat. Me, lex, pav, jenny, darren and benjy eventually just went to mcdonalds. I got something from m & s. Benjy was left waiting for a while for his food, he did NOT look happy.

We then started walking back to meet at southbank outside the london eye. I don't know when darren went home but I hardly got to speak to him :( To be fair I didn't get to speak to too many people because after sitting down again on the grass in the lovely weather, everyone went off to the arcade, however, me and lex didn't.

I bought an ice cream and me and lex had a stroll. We walked along south bank for a bit, holding hands :) We sat on some steps, walked around a bit more, went onto the bridge where you filmed the start of 28 days later. And at this point I felt normal about public displays of affection that were more than just holding hands. I was a bit weird at first with kissing in public, but it just felt normal, and it was nice.

We walked for a bit more, wondered into the marriot hotel garden area which i don't think we were alowwed in. IT WAS WELL GOOD M8.

We eventually met back up with everyone and chilled out on the grass for one last time. The walk with lex and this part now was my favouite part of the day. Everyone chilled out on the grass, relaxed, sunbathed and just generally had a nice time. It was perfect. After a couple of hours we went off to tino's flat. I don't think it'd be fair to say much of what happened because I don't even know if some people even realised what they were doing. If you really want to know, ask ivens, if he remembers.

Me, jenny and lex left and said our goodbyes. Then there were two. Me and lex got onto a train home which seemed like it was taking forever, and niether of us were in a good state, both fairly ill. We stumbled home, but not before walking down some of the shitting scaiest alleys ever, in the pitch black. We stopped at one point and looked up at the stars, followed by a lovely kiss.

We got home, shattered, and slept for a whole 5 hours. A vey early start to the day, had breakfast, and got in the car. Lex and her family (who are lovely) are on their way up to scotland as im writing this. They dropped me off on the way, it's a little bit out of the way but it was nice of them. Me and lex fell asleep in the car, holding hands, pretty much slumped on each other. Apparently her parents said we looked cute ~_~

You know what is quite surreal, all of lex's family have used my bathroom (not at the same time). Also, they've also met my parents, which lex hated so much, I felt strangely fine with it.

Any way, i'll round this off. My past 48 hours have been excellent. I hope yours have been too.

Bye bye

4 weeks

So 4 weeks today, me and lex started going out, which is lovely :) I love her and miss her, alot. However I will see her soon, I'm going to thibls.

Anyway, something I was thinking earlier is how disappointing the wii is. More so the wii games and how much nintendo are coping out with all this family shit and neglecting their "hardcore" gamers.

I don't have much to say about the 360. Don't want to start on banjo 3.

Now as for the ps3, I think the reason they are doing well now is because there was no expectations. They're coming out with some cool, original titles, where as nintendo are making mario do all sorts of shit that I don't give a fuck about. The reason the wii is such a let down is because we expected it to be good. Maybe i'm being a bit harsh, there are a couple decent games, but the last wii game I bought was brawl, and I got it the day it came out, yeah, i know. I guess for now I can only wait, I'm not too bothered with games right now, I have more important things to do/worry about.

Something else, whilst we are on the subject, fanboys that can't accept their favourite console is failing in the market. Pricks that say stuff like "OMFG TEH PS3 PWNS U NUB", it's pathetic, there is no argument when they act like stubborn idiots.

That's all I have to say on the matter.